of dreams and obsessions

I’m obsessed. And how do I cope with it? Actually, I don’t. I just let my obsession kill me slowly, and leave me hanging in despair.

There will come a time when you think you have the one and only solution to your problem. And you take it in your hands, hold it, feel its prowess, and grasp it. You never wanted it to let go. You can really feel its presence and you want it to stay with you forever. It’s like the world stopped spinning and you are the only person in that spatial and temporal moment, you are extremely happy with the source of your joy right there at your very hands. There’s too much rejoicing and gladness, and your heart is more than contented, you can never ask anything that would fill you ‘cause you’re already full to the brim. You’re not cold anymore, you’re taken cared of. It feels so comfortable and consoling. It’s like the warmest and most reassuring hug you’ve received in your entire life. And in the middle of that satisfying leap of transcendental bliss… Someone wakes you up…And so you realized that it was just a dream.

And now, you’re caught inside that dream, not wanting to let go even if it has abandoned you already. You try so hard to sleep and dream it one more time, even just to have a slight remake of that once-blissful moment but fate has not given you the chance to even have a glimpse of it.

Would you rather cry yourself to sleep praying to encounter it one more time, or walk in the lonely road of reality hoping it wouldn’t be so lonely, in consolation of the verity that there is no perfect and enduring happiness?

installing love

Tech Support: Yes, ... how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me though the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running?

Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self- Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on external components ." What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non- technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you, God.

sweet: like haller!?!?! ouch!... fine! fine! fine! spread the word so that people won't end up being like me! hmpf! hehehehe.... open your heart... forgive... and all the other chuvanez... isn't it nice? hehehe... have a nice day everyone!

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